Where I am at right now

    Life doesn't seem to be going my way. By this I mean I am not off traveling foreign countries and I don't have a job I love. There are a lot of other things I could add in the list like I don't have my own place, I am not dating or married yet, I have student loans, I am working a part time retail job, I don't manage my money well, and most of my friends are off living life while I'm stuck.

    I have recently applied to schools, for those of you who don't know. I want to pursue English education in some way. I don't quite have the GPA and I didn't make what I needed to on my MAT, but that's a different story. I want to further my education and move forward in life, but since I don't have the grades or test scores I have been rather worried that I won't get in. I know the world won't end if I don't, but it kind of feels like it or at least that it will just stand still. I just feel like I should be doing something more. You know? 

    Well let me give my spill about how amazing my friends are. I made a 402 on the MAT and I needed a 410. The second time I took it I made a 401. Yeah I suck at standardized tests. That actually happened to me with the ACT, I made a point lower the second time I took it. So I called my mom first and cried to her, then I texted my friend Brittany. She called me a little later that day and gave me a super encouraging speech about how my grade/score doesn't make me who I am. And about how wonderful I am, which you need your friends and loved ones to tell you every so often because it's easy to forget.
    So now I am in Limbo, if you will. Just waiting for something to happen to set my life into motion. Luckily I have people along my path that help encourage and support me. Recently a woman I work with was able to quit and she has always told me that I should follow my writing and to not let Academy bring me down. Having someone who enjoys what i write helps inspire me to chase after the things I love. Hopefully I will get to move forward in my life, but I have learned to enjoy where I am at right now and learning to be content in that.